5/4/2025: Graduation Part #1

I graduate high school in just 32 days from now if I stay on track!

Because of that, I’ve been thinking a lot about mah high school life and the good memories I’ve had. But the thing is... I actually can’t look back fondly on many things. I’ve always been the type to hate school clubs, activities, and dances, so I never did any of that stuff everyone kept saying was so important. And I lost a lot of the friends I used to have which... I’m honestly not as sad about as I thought I’d be?

So... what did I like about high school? An amazing memory... This one is something I REALLY cherish and is even in mah blog... When before my Junior finals my best friend Syd smoked a cigarette with me and drank her white Monster energy drink together while talking.. Then for mah finals in the next class I had no work so I got to just relax on the computers and enjoy the taste of tha monster and the buzz from the cigarette for the first time that I had never felt before.

Then, I had got summer school junior year ... I got Ds and Cs all through high school primarily but still got summer school every year consistently from some Fs so yah I am not the best student tbh lel. Because of my bad grades, I was put on Adderall for a while during school but I just stopped taking it only made me feel bad. So every day in summer school was a peaceful day where I'd spend time alone on laptops unmonitored. I'd slack off like normal and just do whatever.

So, why did I like summer school so much when I was alone always? It was when I first discovered some of my favorite forums and imageboards was in summer school and I'd spend the whole time drinking energy drinks, reading things, and listening to Goreshit in my headphones. I would also love to bring my 3DS with me to summer school and I modded it to play Toromi Hearts 2 on tha home screen soo I have a very nice memory of going into an empty bathroom (since the school had much less ppl during summer school) and listening to tha song echo. No one ever got mad at me for playing on my 3DS all summer school except ONCE when a teacher told me to "put my PS4 away" I would always be the LAST person to get out of summer school which I always did on purpose because it was so happy for me.. My freshman year of summer school was also soo nice because is when I first learned HTML/CSS!

I also look back on my constant skipping class happily even tho it probably wasn't good for my grades LOL I always luv to skip class, walk 20 minutes to the store, and buy a chocolate donut and an energy drink... Tha chocolate donuts at tha nearby gas station is so guud... I also luv to skip to hang out with my friend, listen to breakcore in the car, and go out to eat..

I tried on my graduation cap and gown and honestly... It looks really stupid LOL. They ALL look really dumb and the entire thing with graduation ceremonies is pretty stupid in the first place. I always wish I could skip these sorts of things. But Syd will be there SO I will at least try to make the most of it since I love her.

I applied to a community college. I'm very scared honestly because I have no idea what I'm doing... But I have been thinking about long-term what field I'd wanna go into and I LOVEE CYBERSECURITY SM and web development but my first pick would be cybersecurity.

I will probably talk about dat more later but for now I just so excited but also very sad to graduate soon ..